Living Legacy

The End...What is "The End"? To everyone "The End" is the end. The end of our lives. When our heart decides to stop beating. Our lungs decide to stop taking in air. When our soul leaves our body. When our life ends and so does our story. But the end isn't always "The End". There is usually a sequel to our lives, and that is written in the lives of the people we have touched. 

I want my life not to be just a book, but a best seller! I want it filled with moments, memories, experiences that people are going to love, enjoy hearing about, and learn something from. Knowing that people will be looking back on my life or what I do. I want people to learn something from me. That something I do, will rub off on someone else. That People will take the things they loved about my life, my story, and live them. 

Honestly, I am kind of angry about stories that start with "Once upon a time". I't starts being written only when the princess finds her true love. When they live "Happily ever after". Then They go flashing those big "The End" letters and then cut it to the credits!!! Whats the rest of the story!? Honestly, the best is still to happen. Their LIFE! That was only part of the story?! I want to hear the rest! I want to know if they have kids. If they really do live "Happily ever after"!  

My Ending... I don't want it to be a lame ending, no one likes those. I want my Ending, honestly, to never end. When I stop writing my story, because I'm dead, I will not say "The End".  My legacy will live on in the lives that I have touched, and not End, but keep being written. My story will continue. It will continue to live on in the people who I have touched. My book might be finished, but it never truly ends. Because there are sequels being written with those who have been touched by my story. 

Go out and don't just write your story, but Live it. You choose what is written in your book. Make them things you will treasure, and to the people who make your legacy live on. I want my "Ending" to be continued...

-Hancock

The Little Things

When you look into my eyes

When you smile at me (big)

(big) When you laugh

When you touch me (big)

When you hug me

When you say my name

(big) When you sing out loud

When you talk to me about anything and everything (big)

When we hold hands tightly

When you call me a goof

When you send me winky faces in our texts ;)

When you talk with me in my car

(big) When you make me proud

When you say that your hungry and that we should go get some food.

When you want to help

When you ask me about anything

When you look pretty (which is always)

When you want to be with me (big)

(big) When you keep me updated on your life, because I care about you

When you give me hugs (BIG)

When you hope that I get home safely

When you tell me that you had an amazing time

When you kiss my cheek

When you care about other people

When you want to show me things

When you notice the little things I do (big)

Every single little thing that makes you who you are, makes me smile. I want to know every single little thing about you. I want to know the person who I'm having these Feelings for. And I want you to know who I am. I hope your feeling the same things that I'm feeling. Because that would be awesome ;) 

And those Big things will become the Great things.

-Hancock

I FEAR THE UNKOWN

Fears of mine...

I fear of going to sleep and never waking up. Never getting to feel that cool morning air on my skin. Watching the sun rise over the mountains. Eating a warm breakfast. The feeling of a new day. So I am grateful for each day that I wake from my sleep, and get to feel the morning.

I fear I'm not good enough for my parents. I'm not the little boy I use to be. I have changed. I am trying to start my life. I am becoming who I am. I hope I make you proud, because I still love you. I may not have it all figured out yet, but Mom, don't you worry, because I was raised by the best. 

You and Dad.

I fear that my heart will be broken. I have been through some tough stuff. I have had a few times in my life where I thought I was feeling love. But with every experience, I realized that there was more to learn. Eventually I thought I found it. I had reached the understanding and feeling of love, but I only found that there was still more to be learned. I don't want to reach the end and find that love isn't as strong as I thought. I want to find what I believe is love, and prove that it is real. I want to prove that you can truly love someone with all your heart. That you can love and be loved. That love is the most powerful force in the universe. I think it would kill me. For me to put all my love into someone, and watch them throw it away. 

I don't want to be shattered. 

I want to be loved.

I fear what my future will be like. What I do now in my life will affect my future. Everything I am working on is helping work towards my future. If I get an F in school. There goes the Scholarships. If If I cant control my spending habits,. There goes my credit. I don't want to make the wrong choices and in return, get a  future I didn't want. 

I want to be successful. 

I want to be happy.

I fear that no one is listening. That what I say goes unheard...unread. No one takes it to thought. No one takes it to heart. That all these things that I express are going by unnoticed or being ignored. That the feelings I put down on paper are just words to the lifeless souls that people are. I want to know that I am heard. That people are listening. I fear that no one will understand. 

Even if no one listens. That wont stop me from writing. 

Because one day. 

Maybe...

Somebody will hear me.

Fear has no control over you, until you give it control.

Don't Miss Your Train

Each one of us is given a path to help us through life.

Train Tracks

The tracks lead us to our destination which we do not know.

The train is what gets us there.

By following the tracks, we are easily lead from one thing to another.

It is when we don't get on the train, that we get left behind.

When we get distracted by things that aren't important and lose track of time, or choose not to board the train. 

The train will depart with or without you, and continue on its intended course.

You will then be left to choose for yourself, to stay where you are now...Or you can choose to keep moving forward.

The path will be rough without the protection and safely of the train, and you may become lost, and never find your way.

But there is still hope... We can follow the tracks to hopefully catch up with the train.

Life will be harder and more challenging, but you can follow the tracks, and they will lead you to the next train station.

By missing your train, you have missed opportunities that the train would have passed you by.

But you could make those up, but boarding the train at the next station.

You are not alone on this train. Everyone you know is taking the same train, but not everyone chooses to ride it. 

Some choose to stay where they are and accept the way things are in there life at that time.

Others choose to walk the tracks, and others stray from the path and are lost.

If we just stick to the simple path that is laid before us, we will be successful.

We must embark the train, because it will not wait.

We need to know now what we want, before its to late, and you are left behind.

Life is to precious

Don't waste it trying to catch up with the train.

Stay with it.

Don't be afraid to embark the train of life, because nobody gets thrown off.

Thunderstorms, Math, and Love

I often find myself in dark places. I spend all my time outside when a thunderstorm rolls in. I wake up early and walk around my house with all the lights still off. I sit in my room at night and stare out the window at the moon. I find myself laying on the cold grass outside staring up at the stars.

Why do I do this?

I have been thinking, and I think I know why!

In the light, you can see everything. Nothing is hidden from you. Nothing!!! But in the dark, I can focus on things more. In the light you are distracted by everything, but in the dark, you cant see anything. By surrounding myself in darkness, my mind goes blank. It is not processing what it is seeing because, there is no light. I am not thinking about anything...

My mind becomes dark...

When this happens, your mind isn't thinking about anything, except what you want it to think. By being in  the dark, I can have deeper thoughts, and focus on things that are more important.

 When your mind is clear like that, you are more calm, more relaxed, because your not thinking about tomorrows math test...Unless that's what your thinking about... Freaking forget about math!!!

Think about Love or Life, or something that you can ponder and think deeply on. Something more important than stupid math class!

The One

Requirements:

• Loves me for who I am
• Makes me laugh
• Gives me hugs
• Smiles all the time
• Not afraid to be her self 
• She's my best and closest friend

(Bonus)

• Beautiful
• Companion for life
• Gorgeous eyes
• Infinite Love
• Adorable laugh
• Beautiful Hair
• Smells amazing
• Loving Mother
• Snuggles
• Movie buddy
• We will help each other through any challenge
• Comfort one another
• My Wife
• Go on drives with me
• Family
• Someone to hold my hand
• Make me a sandwich
• Cuddles
• Kissing
• Enjoy the little things together
• Have a life full of loving and caring
• Attitude
• Shes a babe
• Freakin attractive
• (There are to many!)

I just want to find the girl who will make my life complete,

and I'll do my best to make her life an experience she will never forget.

Stages of a Relationship

This is so you can know what stage you might be at in a relationship.

0). No idea who they are!
These are the people you pass in the hallways or on the street and you haven't got a clue of who they are.
1). You know there face, but not their name!
These are the people you recognize, but don't know them. like all the kids who grew up in your grade all through school.
2).You know the person!
You got there name down and you say hi to them in the halls and such, or the are your seat mate in school.
3). Friends!
You actually talk and have inside jokes. You don't just ignore them outside of class and school.
4). Hangout!
Successfully planned and outing where you will be together outside of school. Either at someones house, or at some random geographical location. The Cluuuub?
5). Elbow Touch!
Your sitting next to him/her watching a movie at the theater or someones house. The elbow, which has no nerves at all, comes in contact with the other persons elbow. Signaling that she/he is comfortable enough to allow you in their personal space.
6). Hand Hold!
The hardest decision and possibly thing a Man will ever do or accomplish, besides the Kiss! It is not easy girls! We have this little mental breakdown and conflict in our brain, deciding if we should go for it or not. Anyways, this is when the two of you have enough feelings for each other that you hold hands. It feels good! You feel so great after you have accomplished this.
7). Snuggle/Arm Around!
The two of you are comfortable enough to share the same space. Wrapped up in each others arms, you feel safe, secure, and warm. The guy has his arm around the girl, and she curls up into his arms usually.
8). Kiss!
This one is huge! The feelings you have for each other can not be expressed strong enough by just hand holds, snuggling, and love talk. Kissing brings the two of you closer, if used right. This is a very strong and emotional thing. You shouldn't mess with it. Love will freakin punch you if you don't use it for its intended purpose. This crap is real!
9). Relationship!
A combination of the previous stages that make up this stage. The two of you get to know each other more deeply, and you learn to truly love everything about the person. But It doesn't always go the way you want it...which brings us to the next stage.
10). Breakup!
When, what ever you had before doesn't work anymore. This happens when the person you were in a relationship with, was not the one. The one person you will spend your whole life with. It happens mainly when you mess around with love. Some one will get hurt. Don't go through these stages like its a game. You should be sincerely searching for the right partner. Lame thing is you will usually never see each other again, or be friends. Your relationship is torn. You fall all the way back down to stage 2 or 3.... Sorry

But honestly its good to go though a few breakups to strengthen yourself. The experience is good, because you can learn from your mistakes. I know, because I have gone though some. And it has helped me understand what I really want. I want to be in love with the girl of my dreams, not with what we do. I want to love her for everything she is. If your lucky, you might be able to get to the next Stage...

11). Marriage! 
A combination of true love, respect, and allegiance for each other.

I'm not actually sure what to write for Marriage, but I will know when I get there.

Small Dreams

Those moments you have when your by yourself

looking up at the sky and you start to imagine...

Here is one of mine...

Lying down on a small hill covered by comforting soft grass.

Lying next to me is the most beautiful girl I have ever known.

I feel warm like my whole being is wrapped up in a blanket.

Holding her hand tightly, as if it could slip away at any moment.

Looking up, I see an infinite assortment of stars that are without number.

Feeling like nothing could compare to the vast size of the universe in front of you. 

Except for the love I feel towards her.

Watching as the shooting stars fall out of the sky.

We talk all night.

Losing track of the time as if it didn't exist.

Wishing this night would never end.

When I look into her eyes, I lose myself.

When she looks into mine, I feel like she looks right through my soul.

Eventually I sit up and lean over her, gazing into her beautiful eyes.

She leans up, and I push her hair back.

Then we look at each other one last time as we both close our eyes.

Then find each others lips, and kiss.

Don't Judge